The last few months have whizzed by with no record - to check back on what was achieved! What was lost - what was found - and all the bits inbetween! It stops today . . .
To my TUM partners I am ever so sorry - I am so proud of you Mariette! You took one constant in your life, despite the pressures around you and you kept us all going! Your images will be posted here soon! To Pam - I hope that tonight you weather Sandy well and she brings you and your loved one's no harm. We are all rooting for you all. To Linda - I can't wait to see you - to have a hug - to tell you that I really am going to be ok!
For this week our theme was Touch - here is Mariette's amazing take! I can feel how SAFE she feels in her hubbys hands!
Here is my version of TOUCH - I think I prefer the bottom version - have enjoyed experimenting with actions tonight - they have only be loaded on my machine for months!
You see, it is not only the blog that has been neglected, it is a lot of other things too!
I really want to say to some special people out there - you need to read this blog! It is part of our TUM group - three of us have emigrated - for me, not sure of the others, this was actually my third! Ok, the first one doesn't count as I was far too young to remember or be affected. The second was from post Mugabe Zimbabwe to South Africa in ???? (detail to be confirmed!) I was about 13 from what I can remember - I, like Meagan had blocked so much of my old life out! It is only seeing my own daughter do it now that I realise how it affected me and what I did and see the pattern emerging - the circle of life! Over the past few months there have been things that have rocked my world emotionally at every level and all those memories are now resurfacing and being dealt with. I hope that Meagan one day doesn't have to go through the same and that she will soon learn to deal with the loss and heartache one experiences when leaving a life that you KNOW, that is comforting to you, to START all over again! Pam's post is so true! We are called the chickens who ran away - to those who are still in their comfort zone - in the fishbowl - I would like to say that our decision for a better furture for our children may not have been the one YOU thought we should make but it was ours to make. It was not easy uprooting them from everything they knew and loved and family and friends they loved to start afresh! It creates scars - it thows you into situations that are not familiar - all of a sudden taxing your car is a mountain to you - as it is not what you are used to - the systems are different the language is different the FORMS are made out to be in simple English and you think you are STUPID because you just can't make sense of them!
I Loved Pam's post and I loved Mariette's confirmation that she too has been through similar situations. I cannot believe we left SA almost five years ago - the first two years were planned - that's all we had to get through then Year 3 flew by - what the hell happened to the last two?
I LOVE my new home - I love the opportunities it brings. I love exploring and am enjoying planning our gap year to Australia - so much to see and do and so much opportunity.
I thank my family unit for their patience with me - the last few months with me have not been the easiest - but have any other months been? We are all on a journey - not to see the world but to learn about ourselves and what matters the most to us - lessons need to be learnt and life patterns need to be recognised and for the FIRST time in my life I have just realised it's not all ABOUT ME! I can just be - there are other peoples lessons that I have been pulled into that are not about ME but about them! Such a simple concept, such a relief when the lightbulb moment appear!
(Sorry I couldn't download Mariette's image - I will insert it later)
Pam - Your image had it's pride of place too - as soon as Sandy leaves!
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